You want to know what I am writing? Lists of things I should be writing about.
I think I have a new category: kerewin crazy. Because I am. Just too embarrassed to let you all know, until now. I might even write more except that insomnia has come to roost and my brain isn't even functioning.
Back when I was a kid and had insomnia I would entertain myself for hours with counting. Adding up numbers on the digital clock, or playing number games in my head or just counting. I used to obsessively count steps (in my head). Steps on the stairs, steps to the door, steps all day. I had to find a way to break myself because I couldn't seem to stop. I finally had to start spouting the alphabet (in my head) or some other such nonsense long enough for my brain to lose track of just how many steps I just took. I did that enough to where I trained myself not to count.*
Now if I could train myself to sleep. I think I will go practice right now. In fact, I am looking forward to it, because my head hurts so much that I know it will be a supreme pleasure just to let that pain go as I drift off.**
* I just noticed that I opened this at 22:22:22 on August 22, which leads me to explain that I was also nuts over things like dates and times where the numbers were all the same, increased in order (12:34) or decreased in order. I looked forward to 12:34 and 56 seconds on the 7th Month, 8th Day, of '90 for instance. I apparently am so over my obsession that someone had to tell me when it was 05/05/05, and 06/06/06.
** Har, Har, an hour and a half later I have come to the realization (AGAIN) that just desire to sleep doesn't necessarily translate into actual sleep.
Posted by kerewin at August 22, 2006 10:22 PMomg! a friend of mine *looks around innocently* adds numbers on a digital clock and keeps adding them until they become a single number, then adds the bars that make the numbers and once you get a time that adds up to 4 (4 bars) then you cannot open your eyes until morning... i fall asleep a lot at 1:18 a.m. I mean my friend falls asleep
I count too. I do a lot of what you and NED mentioned, and I also have some other things; It's hard to explain, but I pick a number, and then pick another number and I keep counting the first number until it ends at a number that's divisible by the other number. (For example, if I pick 13 and 5, I'd count 13 on one hand, let's say, until I end up at the pinky (65)). I also count and recount things like stairs, poles, dotes, etc, in my surrounding, often also using the same principle as the aforementioned, but not always. I have lots more, just can't think of them at the moment.
(BTW, how could you possibly have not noticed 05/05/05??? I'd been waiting for that date all my life!) :P
Posted by: kjm at August 25, 2006 03:28 AMoh noooo-- the list virus, it is spreading!
I'm still waiting for the cure.
Posted by: Elizabeth at August 25, 2006 08:36 AMI wonder if you take anything. I have a giant list of things I've tried but my favorite at the moment is melatonin spray--you spray it under your tongue. It works for me. For the moment, at least.
Posted by: ozma at August 30, 2006 12:10 PMI occasionally take some Tylenol PM, but usually nothing. Where does one get a melatonin spray?
Posted by: kerewin at September 1, 2006 09:08 AM